Hello everyone!

       Just trying to Keep you all updated on my life here in Germany.  SOme of you may have heard by now that I will not be getting married in July as my angel and I had planned.  My Shop pretty much lied to me a few months ago when I rquested leave for the month of July.  Afew weeks ago they told me that too many people signed up for that month andf I was cut from the list.  Welcome to military life.  SO we know plan to wait until my tour oaver here ends next year to get married.  I still don't sleep much at all.  I am however slowly but surely getting through my blocks.  I have made it past 2 of them completely and am working on the third (meditation).  If I have not mentioned it before I have a total of 7 blocks to get through in order for me to prgress along my path.  About 5 months ago is when these blocks came up.  When they first hit All the work I had done up till that point was gone.  No energy work, meditation, or anything.  The First block I had to get through was morking with my own energy.  After that was sensing other people's/ things energy.  I can now do that , but am still fairly week at it.  Now I have to completely relearn how to meditate.  As you can imagine, that is not easy.  Especialy with the way my mind works now ( that being why I can't sleep).  But as you can see, I am making some progress.  So that is what I have been up to.  I would love to hear from you guys.  TTYL.

Well I finally went to the doctor for the whole not sleeping thing.  He asked a bunch of stupid pointless questions For about an hour.  And when he Finally asked what I thought was the problem,  he didn't actually listen to what I said.  And I know this because he completely ignored everything I said about not want ing to take sleep meds.  He also mentioned putting me on some sort of anti-anxiety pill.  I took the sleeping pill for the first time last night, and the only thing that changed was that it took longer to become functional while I was at work.  I told them I would take the pills for 1 week, and if I don't like the effects then I am going to stop.  I guess we will see what becomes of this situation.  I am done ranting and raving for now.  Bye-Bye.

           Moonwolf

Thank you all so much for the ideas.  Unfortunately, other than the bath I have tried everything mentioned.  I would gladly take a hot bath if I could, but I live in the dorms on base.  All I have access to is a shower that I share with my neighbor.  The hot water is relaxing (while it lasts), but does nothing to slow my mind.  I have a friend over here that I recently  discovered is on a path verry similar to my own.  He has had this problem for a long time, but has found ways to temporarily bypass the efects.  I takes a while to be able to sort everything out and actually sleep, but he is showing me the way.  In the mean time I still will do just about anything to try and get some sleep.  If you have any other suggestions please let me know.  I greatly appriciate all the help!  Thanks again everyone.

                Moonwolf

What's goin' on everyone!

    Does anyone have any ideas on how to stop my mind from racing so i can get some sleep?  I have tried just about everything other than sleep aids.  I tried several herbal teas and such like, but they had no efect at all.  I can't meditate because I can't concentrate.  I even had a friend try to "bind" my mind in order to slow it down.  She got the worst headache of her life.  I felt horrible about it.  I have not gotten more than 2 hrs of sleep in 1 night for about 3 months.  I don't know what to do, and my friends over here are running out of ideas.  If anyone has any suggestions i am will ing to try just about anything.  I would really appriciate some advice.

                                                           Moonwolf